How I appreciated the reminder that feeling like this is all just too much, is simply my comfortable subby self luring me back into the “going nowhere fast” life, and I absolutely refuse to listen! I finished this week’s “chore” at noon today, and have managed to keep up with the scroll readings 3xday, even if not quite on the schedule — my noon-five afternoon workshop yesterday had my lunch-time reading at 6 pm, but still before dinner, so I counted it. Now all I have to do is the 15-min “statue” drill, which I’ve been combining with the 30-min “visualize the new me” exercise. Anyone else have trouble with seeing the new you?
One of the sentences in Scroll One that really spoke to me is on page 54: “I have surrendered my free will to the years of accumulated habits, and the past deeds of my life have already marked out a path which threatens to imprison my future.” The picture of my “imprisoned future” just jumped out at me — talk about an incentive to get to work on the blueprint for the person I intend to become. So the silent statue drill has been a good tool to focus on something I’ve never taken the time to think about, more than just joking through the years about not knowing what I’m going to be when I grow up. At this stage in life, the realization has finally hit me that I better get busy — this isn’t a rehearsal, it’s the real deal!
So, 15-min-sit, then it’s off to Bible study, then back to the last readings of the day, and retiring with a true sense of accomplishment. I feel so blessed to be a part of this unique gift because I know, without a doubt, it is changing my life for the better. Thank you again, Mark and Davene, for your willingness to take the chance on this experiment — may God continue to bless you richly!